Trying to Accept

I'm slowly starting to accept the fact that I've been rejected from U of MN. I'm still pretty sad about it because I loved everything about the school and the city when I went there for my interview. I wouldn't feel so sad if I knew that I didn't have anything to do with the outcome, but it surely must be because I didn't interview well.... because the acceptance, waitlist or rejection was soley based on the interview, personal statement and letters of recs. Unless I had some not so stellar letters, which may be possible since I don't know what my 3 letters wrote. I thought I had a pretty solid personal statement... which leads me to conclude that my interview did not go as well as I thought. If I at least got waitlisted, I wouldn't feel so bad.... but I got straight up REJECTED. It makes me feel pretty bad.

I'll probably get over it when I start getting excited about the school that I actually AM going to attend. We find out next week for Western U's acceptances, waitlists and rejections. And if Mike was more gung-ho about going to Kansas with me, I might be more excited about that as well. But all this time he's been saying "ehhh" about Kansas, even though he says that he will go with me. So I feel bad dragging him along there if it's not where he wants to be. I talked to him last night and he said that maybe us going to Kansas is a good thing because we'll be in a rural area, which neither of us have really experienced, whereas we've kind of already lived the city life and will probably live the city life after I graduate vet school. He does want a change of atmosphere also... but I still get this feeling that he'd rather be here than Kansas.

I really need to stop talking about how depressing this all is! I mean, honestly? I SHOULD be happy. There are lots of other people who haven't had one acceptance.... I suppose if I went to the U of MN interview first and got rejected, then went to my Kansas interview and was accepted, I would be thrilled. But the timing didn't work out that way... and when I got to Minnesota, I started thinking about how GREAT everything was going to be if I was able to go to this school.... I started planning everything in my head... where Mike and I were going to live, where I could get food for Medusa.. where we could eat lunch on Sunday mornings... I got really detailed and I think that was definitely a mistake on my part. I should have never had those feelings of excitement until I actually got in. Because you never know what can happen...

Okay, I said that I would stop talking about how depressed I am but I just continued to splurge! With that, I think I should make some pointers about Kansas that IS awesome and great.

• I got into vet school. Something I thought I could never even accomplish.
• Kansas State is a vet school in the United States.
• Kansas State has a stronger focus on exotics than U of MN.
• Kansas State does not track (to some this may be a negative, but I view it as a positive).
• Every student of KSU's DVM program gets a Toshiba tablet. I'm damn excited about that tablet!!
  

On another note... today at work, Sam, an American Bulldog that has an enlarged heart came in today for a check up. He had gained almost 20 pounds because of fluid build up in his abdomen. Dr. Vollaro decided to tap the abdomen to get some of that fluid out. We sucked out 9 liters of fluid from his abdomen. It took almost an hour and a half! But he weighed a lot less afterwards and looked much more comfortable. Poor guy. He's such a sweet dog. I have a feeling Sam doesn't have a whole lot of time left here with us... his meds seem less effective than before.

You know what I AM excited about? Being a veterinarian in 2012!! I can't believe that I'm actually going to be a vet (as long as I survive vet school that is)... I was always kind of skeptical since my overall GPA isn't so great because of some issues I had with my personal life during the beginning of my college education. It'll be great because I'll be able to take care of Cory Pie and The Faceman myself... Cory especially since he's so awful at the vet. I am happy... eventually I'll be ecstatic about vet school. I know it!!!

The Cory Pie!

The Faceman!

We're doing movie night at Em's house tonight. Yay!!