I'm feeling.. eh. I can't believe this is my last weekend in California! Mike and I are leaving next Friday. Before I kept thinking that this day would never come. Now it's actually here and happening and we're both swept off our feet in terms of what we need to do and get done.
I'm really excited to start learning about a career that I am going to truly cherish and love.. at the same time, I'm sure that once I actually start at KSU, I will be like.. "ugh. I'm in school again! I'm dreading this midterm tomorrow!" Although, this time around... for grad school.. I plan on not focusing so much on my actual grades.. but instead putting my mind towards learning and maintaining material rather than memorizing and worrying about the test format. The goal of vet school is to come out with an UNDERSTANDING of veterinary medicine and being able to apply it in real life... not simply a regurgitation of text material.
I am definitely a bit nervous about starting school... I just hope there aren't too many childish people in our class... and pray that I get along with everyone... Although, sometimes I think that is my downfall. I want everyone to like me and get upset easily if a conflict arises. I'm not good at dealing with angry or upset people... when it's targeted at me anyway. Because of that I feel like I try to please everyone all the time.. and end up working way too hard to make everyone happy. Which, as everyone knows, is IMPOSSIBLE. But I end up suffering myself trying to please everyone. I think it's a really bad habit and I should just let things be. At the same time, I think it's a good thing.. when I can handle it! It just gets overwhelming sometimes... and that's when things can get messy. I just need to find the right balance in being nice.
Writing definitely helps my thought and decision process... =) I feel much better already.
