TOWING COMPANIES SUCK!!!!!

So. Here I am.. sitting at my parent's house in Aliso Viejo at 11:30 pm. Why you ask? Because my car got fucking towed because it was parked on the street in front of my parents garage. And guess what? It's a freaking RENTAL car that got towed! This is so absurd... the car was parked out there for 40 minutes and it gets towed. No knock on the door, no note... no nothing! I can't believe the fury that I have inside of me for these putrid pieces of shit towing companies. I know I'm not thinking logically, but I still hate the hell out of them!!!!

I don't know why I like to delve my thoughts into the past sometimes. Especially when these thoughts make me feel a bit on the blue side. I hate how I still feel sad about someone who is no longer in my life. On the bright side, I think they are doing well, so it's not really so bad as long as they are happy right? It's just that, it makes me feel sad sometimes. It's definitely not something I think about on a daily basis, but I think about them from time to time and wonder what is going on in their lives.

"I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder
What are we fighting for?
When I say out loud
I wanna get out of this
I wonder
Is there anything I'm going to miss?

I wonder how it's gonna be
When you don't know me
How's it gonna be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it gonna be
When there is no one there to talk to, between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be?

Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
The silence I can't ignore
Like the hammocks by the doorway we spent time in
Swings empty
I don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me

I wonder how's it gonna be
When it goes down
How's it gonna be
When your not around
How's it gonna be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be

How's it gonna be
When you don't know me anymore?

I wanna get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
Wanna taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion
Oblivion
How's it gonna be
When you don't know me anymore?
How's it going to be
How's it going to be?"

-3eb

I guess I'll leave it at that... Good night.

Buddy

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It's 1:30 am in the morning... why am I up so late you ask? The answer is a combination that includes work starting at noon tomorrow and Mike not being home for the weekend. He went to Mammoth with some of his friends this weekend. I don't know if they are going to go boarding... but if they do, I have a feeling the snow will be kind of crappy. They had to go regardless because they had already booked the cabin. I know they will have fun anyway, with or without boarding!

It's actually kind of nice to have some time to myself at home... I feel like I'm never even home to begin with. All I do with my life right now is work, work and some more work. The benefit is that I actually have real money in my account. The disadvantage is that I'm freaking tired all the time and have hallucinations about when I will stop working. I call them hallucinations because I fear I won't stop until I actually make the move out to Kansas.

It always seems like with every new job I have, I always feel very timid, nervous and apprehensive about working at the new place. Then I start to get used to it, feel like I can be myself and start liking the new job. I suppose that's usually a good thing. In my case at the moment, it's not such a good thing because I need to quit one of my jobs very soon and now I'm having a hard time deciding which one. Because I like both places so much... I'm tempted to just stay at both... but I can't keep doing this 2 job thing. It's slowly killing me! I really like both places... both with very different people. There are different aspects about both jobs that I enjoy and also don't enjoy. More than likely though, I'll leave ACCIM.. solely for the reason that I haven't been there as long (even though they pay me more. WAY more).

I have some very sad news....

Buddy boy has osteosarcoma. =( I was so sad when I suddenly realized that this was not something that surgery could fix for Buddy. He's 9-years-old and doesn't do well under anesthesia. He's too top heavy and wouldn't make a good tripod anyway even if surgery were an option. I saw the x-rays the other day... it's affecting his right hind and it looks pretty damaged already. Someone noticed that he started limping last week... and bone cancer is what we found in the rads. Poor Buddy... he's such a good boy. Always just wanted to be petted and loved. He probably only has a good 3 months at best before it gets really bad and we'll have to put him down. Buddy is a sweetheart of a dog and I'm so sad to hear this bad news...

I <3 Buddy.

A Day Off

Finally! An off day for me this month... =) For the month of April, I have 3 days off... Two of those days will be spent in Vegas and today is the other one. Whew...! It has been so incredibly stressful to work two jobs. Seven days a week of work is just too much. I'm dying here! I can't wait until all this madness of work is OVER. I'm planning on making June 13th my last day at ACCIM. I'll continue working at VCA until the end of July. Then I'm off for school in good old Kansas. As every day goes by, I get more and more excited about vet school. I just can't wait to start! It's going to be so great learning about what I love and am passionate about. I know grad school is going to be stressful as well, but at least I know there's a wonderful goal to reach at the end.

I'm so so so excited to go to KSU!!!


So that I can treat patients like this....



Mike and I are meeting up with Rene and Jeff tonight for some grub and a movie. I think we are going to watch Run, Fat Boy, Run. Hoorah!

"...Working 9 to 5..." (everyday of the week and some days longer)

I have to say, that avocado egg rolls at BJ's are darn yummy. I just came back from dinner with Rene... I had a lot of fun! I haven't seen that girl in ages so it was great to catch up with her. I let her know my final decision was Kansas State for vet school... let her know about all the other exciting happenings with my life... working 2 jobs, loosing my gold filling, and getting my vehicle hit my an elderly man for starters! Hopefully we are going to meet up again for dinner soon and go to a Dodger game on the 16th!

My legs are really achy today for some reason. I have been handling working 2 jobs pretty well so far I think. I have a lot of things to complain about, but I'm not really going to address them here today because I'm happy regardless. =) Many of the things I have to complain about relate to work... so I'm really going to be thrilled when I take a month off in July. So far I'm planning on going to San Diego with my sisters, Vegas trip with the girls, Vegas trip with Mike, Catalina trip with Mike, and other small camping trips... maybe to Barton Flats with Mike and Cory Pie.

Yesterday I saw 'Horton Hears a Who' with Emily, Rory and Kazuki. I don't like or hate Dr. Seuss. I guess I don't care for it because I didn't grow up with it. But the movie was actually very creative and funny! I enjoyed the movie immensely. I definitely recommend it! We also ate In N Out last night for dinner. Something I haven't had in a very long time so it was very well enjoyed by my tummy!

Our 10K run is coming up in May... it's not going to be pretty! Especially since I haven't really been training AT ALL..... just all these little things keep coming up... and with me working 6 to 7 days a week, I'm simply too tired.... I'm really just kind of winging it and I know Mike is disappointed, but can you really blame me? This is my general work schedule right now.

• Monday 6:30 am - 3:30 pm (VCA)
• Tuesday 10:00 am - 8:00 pm (ACC&IM)
• Wednesday 6:30 am - 3:30 pm (VCA)
• Thursday 11:00 am - 9:00 pm (ACC&IM)
• Friday 11:00 am - 9:00 pm (ACC&IM)
• Saturday 12:00 pm - 10:00 pm (ACC&IM)
• Sunday 8:00 am - 5:00 pm (VCA)

Every now and then I have a Sunday off because I request about two Sundays off per month. I basically do it to maintain my sanity. Although one of the Sundays I requested off in the next couple of weeks may get completely messed up.... I'll see. I'm going to try and get out of it... because I'm just so exhausted all the time. I just can't do it. Mentally and physically... I'm being drained. But at least I actually have money in my account. Oy. It's always a lose/lose situation... but once I go to vet school... that will all change!!! Going to relax now before I go to bed... Good night.