It's 1:30 am in the morning... why am I up so late you ask? The answer is a combination that includes work starting at noon tomorrow and Mike not being home for the weekend. He went to Mammoth with some of his friends this weekend. I don't know if they are going to go boarding... but if they do, I have a feeling the snow will be kind of crappy. They had to go regardless because they had already booked the cabin. I know they will have fun anyway, with or without boarding!
It's actually kind of nice to have some time to myself at home... I feel like I'm never even home to begin with. All I do with my life right now is work, work and some more work. The benefit is that I actually have real money in my account. The disadvantage is that I'm freaking tired all the time and have hallucinations about when I will stop working. I call them hallucinations because I fear I won't stop until I actually make the move out to Kansas.
It always seems like with every new job I have, I always feel very timid, nervous and apprehensive about working at the new place. Then I start to get used to it, feel like I can be myself and start liking the new job. I suppose that's usually a good thing. In my case at the moment, it's not such a good thing because I need to quit one of my jobs very soon and now I'm having a hard time deciding which one. Because I like both places so much... I'm tempted to just stay at both... but I can't keep doing this 2 job thing. It's slowly killing me! I really like both places... both with very different people. There are different aspects about both jobs that I enjoy and also don't enjoy. More than likely though, I'll leave ACCIM.. solely for the reason that I haven't been there as long (even though they pay me more. WAY more).
I have some very sad news....
Buddy boy has osteosarcoma. =( I was so sad when I suddenly realized that this was not something that surgery could fix for Buddy. He's 9-years-old and doesn't do well under anesthesia. He's too top heavy and wouldn't make a good tripod anyway even if surgery were an option. I saw the x-rays the other day... it's affecting his right hind and it looks pretty damaged already. Someone noticed that he started limping last week... and bone cancer is what we found in the rads. Poor Buddy... he's such a good boy. Always just wanted to be petted and loved. He probably only has a good 3 months at best before it gets really bad and we'll have to put him down. Buddy is a sweetheart of a dog and I'm so sad to hear this bad news...
I <3 Buddy.
