I don't know why I like to delve my thoughts into the past sometimes. Especially when these thoughts make me feel a bit on the blue side. I hate how I still feel sad about someone who is no longer in my life. On the bright side, I think they are doing well, so it's not really so bad as long as they are happy right? It's just that, it makes me feel sad sometimes. It's definitely not something I think about on a daily basis, but I think about them from time to time and wonder what is going on in their lives.

"I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder
What are we fighting for?
When I say out loud
I wanna get out of this
I wonder
Is there anything I'm going to miss?

I wonder how it's gonna be
When you don't know me
How's it gonna be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it gonna be
When there is no one there to talk to, between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be?

Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
The silence I can't ignore
Like the hammocks by the doorway we spent time in
Swings empty
I don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me

I wonder how's it gonna be
When it goes down
How's it gonna be
When your not around
How's it gonna be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be

How's it gonna be
When you don't know me anymore?

I wanna get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
Wanna taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion
Oblivion
How's it gonna be
When you don't know me anymore?
How's it going to be
How's it going to be?"

-3eb

I guess I'll leave it at that... Good night.