Hey there! I finally made it back to Manhattan, Kansas. As I was returning back in the car with Mike, I felt very... imprisoned. The first day that I get back to Kansas from California always feels like this. Like I can't escape this "little apple" feeling. I feel kind of trapped. Like I can't leave. It's kind of awful! I always settle back down and once I do I feel fine. But always the first day back.... Bleh. I just miss being in the city. And it's not only that. I miss my family. I love hanging out with my sisters, and they aren't here you know?
Suey told me that there are only a couple of people that she can always laugh incredibly hard with. Those people would be me and Flower. You know what's funny? I feel the same way about her. She's the only person in my life right now that I can laugh deliriously with. I mean, we just GET IT. Joo know? We are pretty much amused by the same things. It sucks to not be able to hang out with Suey whenever I want. And Sarah- she has changed so much! She used to be so incredibly quiet. Even around us. And now she's just a bubble of speech and just so much more open. It's really great. She's really grown! I just heart my sisters. :) Another person I've really come to appreciate is my dad. I knew he was a wise person, but during this trip I found out that he's much more than that. The only person that I have tiffs with are my mother. But even towards the end, she and I were getting along fine. It was probably because I was staying with Suey. As long as I'm not around my mother for extended periods of time, I can tolerate her. Still. Even through all the bad, there is so much good. And I miss them.
I had a fabulous time in California overall... and I'm definitely going to start missing it real soon.... But there's a lot of things I need to accomplish here now. Starting with going back to the gym! I thought I was going to go all the time in California, but that was definitely not the case. In fact, I think I pretty much ate out almost everyday and worked out minimally while I was in California. But I mean, I wasn't going to get to eat In N' Out, sushi, Indian food, PHO... sheesh.. I couldn't help myself. I did go to a yoga class with Suey and worked out a little... but just not the way I wanted to or do here in Kansas. So that's all got to change, starting tomorrow! There's a lot of stuff that Mike and I have to take care of too.. like cleaning out our old apartment, calling the cable guy, getting our AC fixed.. just little things like that you know? So it does really feel good to back, sleeping in my own bed, knowing that I'm going to be able to take care of stuff around the house... being back with my amneemals... so it's not all terrible being back in Manhattan... I just miss things about California already you know? I guess now I know... I won't ever be able to be a small town girl. It's a great experience I think, but I definitely prefer city life.
Anyhoodles! I should sleep.. but I think I'm feeling a little bit of jet lag. Meh. Well... I'll be off. Toodles!!!
P.S. Started a great book: The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People. It's something to read when you have time to invest in yourself. It's not a difficult read, but it's something that you have to pay attention to if you want to get anything out of it. I think you also need to have an open heart and mind... But it's definitely worthwhile. :)
