Herro! I've been in the sunny bliss of California winter for a couple of days now... it's good to be back. It's also horrid to be back. I'd forgotten how mean and selfish people are here. Which turns me into an equally mean and selfish person no less. The first thing that happened as soon as I landed and walked over the the baggage claim was a bad encounter. Of course there was a huge crowd.. all standing around. I see that my bags have come out in the first batch. I go over to get them, have to squeeze in between people. I try to reach over to grab them, even asking someone if they can move over to no avail. They go flying by. Fine. So I wait. Next to me, people start pushing each other. Which of course, pushes me into the girl to my right. She looks at her parents and says, "God! I can't believe she just pushed me! Don't these people know how to speak English?" Which just downright pisses me off. I wanted to badly to just SCREAM at her. But I bite my tongue and hold it in seeing as how I've only JUST arrived to California.. No reason to start a fight with some arrogant little teenager. Had she been any older I tell you... it would have been the end of my sanity. Of course in the past 2 days that I've been here, I've heard car honks more than 50 times.
People are just downright rude here. It really gets under my skin. Especially now that I've seen the other side... the good in people.. the niceness of people in Kansas. Makes me wonder if I'm suited for living in the big city that I've been in all my life prior to Kansas. I realize how much my environment made me so unhappy. How it filled me up with so much anger that I couldn't find it in me to be nice to others. It's so tiring you know. To be nice to others and have it thrown back at you. Hospitality. People don't know what that means here in Los Angeles, California. And it bothers me...
I think Mike and I might have to opt for living in Canada after vet school.
Although... I don't want to give up on the city life of California just yet. I don't want to give up on humanity.. I want to believe that the goodness in people exist. It's just discouraging is all.
We'll see....
